Meet Kinsley Madison Rayne Baxter! She apparently wants to be an acrobat when she grows up. Her heart beats so close to mine. At this moment, no one can be closer to me than she can. She is mine. No one can take her away from me (which is the part I like best). I was blessed to be able to adopt 6 beautiful children who I love with all my heart, but I missed their baby years. Oh how I have longed for those baby years. Always wishing for something I could never have. Always wanting to rewind time and rock them, feed them, burp them, and take care of them. Impossible. Then there are others. I have kept so many babies over the years as a foster parent, but they were not mine. They all had mommies to go home to, and they all carried a piece of my heart away with them when they left my care. Watching each one leave was heartbreaking, because I fell in love with them all. I had no choice, and most of them are back with wonderful mommies who take very good care of them. But this one....this one I don't have to give away. There is no other mommy. I am the only mommy she will ever have and ever know. I get to keep her as long as God allows me. I only have to share her with her daddy. I worked hard for ten years trying to bring her into this world. Finally, she is on her way. I can't explain the emotions surrounding this baby girl. I pray that I can be the mother she needs me to be. I want her to always be able to look back and know that her mommy loves her without a doubt, because I do. I really do. My sweet, precious angel. My gift from God. The last piece needed to complete our family.
